The Cock Control and Sissy School Testimoanials

I love calling Ms Elizabeth. We always have the most
amazing time together. From the beginning she knew
what I liked most and knew what I didn’t like and
never brought it up. I think we are finally getting
into more dumb and dangerous acts for me to perform
for her. I also love how during our sessions it can be
interrupted by sports talk too. We have developed such
great chemistry together that I will be planning on
calling her many more a time then I already have and
looking forward to making her laugh. While Ms
Elizabeth has been known (a time or two, lol) to be
mean, She has always been the most sweetest of persons
to me and has helped out in many other ways in dealing
with situation’s outside of this. I also love how She
can take time out also to play games, when she is not
busy, I also consider a very good and true friend
also. Thank you Mistress Elizabeth, you rock my world.

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There are so many fine websites under the LDW umbrella, but my favorite has to be CommunityKink.com. There are two main reasons for this site being my favorite. The first reason is the wonderful, talented mistresses that take the time and effort to enter the chat rooms and the second reason is the friends that I have made in the chat rooms.

These chat rooms in CommunityKink.com are what make this phone sex operation truly unique. I have been on a few other sites where the “mistresses” make a minimal effort to talk with the chatters. They seem bored and put out that they actually have to chat and the quality of the conversation is pretty poor. But, at CommunityKink.com, it is quite a different story. There are scheduled chat/programs that run the gamut from MsTara’s Friday night tea parties, to an occasional Midnight Mindfuck with Ms Ava & MsBrooke to the incomparable MsAshley, the rocking cock jock who never fails to have me laughing out loud (lol). These talented ladies, and I include all of the mistresses, give 110% effort in their hosted chats and Cock Radio programs on this website. What a great concept! A lot of the mystery is removed when you have a chance to actually interact with a mistress who you would like to contact before you make that call. Sometimes, the chat can become silly, but, for the most part, there is an intelligent multi-way conversation happening that is completely entertaining and quite sexy. MsAlly needs to be commended for hiring beautiful, bright, intelligent women that keep me coming back day after day to experience something very special.

The second reason for the CommunityKink.com website being my favorite is the friends that I have made since I started coming in here this past June. Is there no better feeling then to enter the chat room and have a number of people say “Hi” or “Welcome back” and know that they are truly happy to see you? It is a place where all types of kinkster can be made welcome, be they sissies, cross-dressers, strokers, etc. Personally, I have never met a sissy or a cross-dresser in real life, but, now, after talking with them in the chat room, I consider them to be my friends. I love the witty banter back and forth, be it asia teasing about the Bruins, tonyd with his 147 legs getting into trouble, kel winning another 10 minute call with a mistress, wd being anything but worthless or the lovely serena with a kind word or two that always cheers me up. There are others that I have not mentioned and I do apologize, but all of the chatters in the room make it truly fun to come in and spend a few hours that usually turns into a few more hours.

Where else can you be chatting about the dominating Boston sports teams and then segue into a discussion on CBT or the difference between a fetish and a kink? This combination of the outstanding mistresses and the great chatters is truly special and I hope that it doesn’t change.

These are the two reasons why I think that CommunityKink.com is my favorite LDW website.

Sissy School is indeed The Greatest Service In The History of The Phone Sex Industry!

I am a phone sex connoisseur, an afficionado; my tastes within the parameters of my particular fetish are painfully refined like those of the hypersensitive Des Esseintes in Against The Grain by J.K. Huysmans. I have been an avid phone sex user since the beginning sometime in the 80s. I have plumbed the depths of countless systems, every permutation, seeking the ultimate experience. When I finally discovered Sissy School it was as if I’d located The Holy Grail of all sexual satisfactions.

The Mistresses of Sissy School demonstrated unprecedented eloquence, articulation, and imagination. I’m a very fussy transvestite obsessed with ritualistic dressing, role play, and sincere conversation. When getting all dolled up every detail must be in place. I like to hear involved descriptions of the complete outfit, hair, make up and the art of actually putting it all on. (I don’t know how specific I should get here with my particular needs?) In my mind’s eye I want a full sensory experience. I want to see, hear, smell, touch and taste every article, every action. And I’m a real dirty pervert sometimes too. I enjoy the collision of High and Low, the Sacred and Profane, The Prissy and The Grotesque. I felt like they truly listened to precisely what I wanted and intuitively gleened what I needed. It was my impression that customer satisfaction was more than a business cliché for Ally-that she really wished her operation to stand out as a uniquely top shelf company in a cyber sea polluted with endless disappointments.
And so it seemed the girls she employed were selected and trained with this concept in mind. I was always treated with respect, honestly and with dignity even if I didn’t exactly click with whoever I choose to talk. I like the way each gal has her own profile to capture our imaginations and seduce us into the scene we crave so passionately. Most of the mistresses write up deliciously teasing bios suggesting how they tend to work, how our call might go down, showing us the timbre of their personality which I find very helpful in making a selection. These days most gals offer a link to their blogs offering further elaboration and intrigue. I find it very nice to be able to IM or email and discuss my interests before making a call.
And I love that most offer a voice clip, which let’s face it is really a crucial element of the phone sex experience. Then, there is the whole message board! A dimension I almost neglected—it’s a terrific rounding out and resource annexed to the site. I got to post a story when I first joined; posted a link to my blog; heard the most erotic audio, etc.

I find the technical operations to be extremely user friendly, quite conducive to preserving my mood, my special frame of mind when I most desire the service.
I like that once my information is on file all I need to do is dial. I stick with the same mistresses for the most part so it’s beautiful. No rush, no awkwardness, talk as long as I want. Other services I’ve tried aggravate me having to repeat my info every call and request a girl through a dispatcher and then being committed to a certain amount of time that automatically cuts off?! What an infuriating, vibe killer. Even when I do have to go through a dispatcher at Sissy School, say, for a new girl when my favorites aren’t available, the process is very smooth, just lovely really.

Three gals really stand out throughout my experience with Sissy School. A Glorious Triumvirate of The World’s Greatest Phone Mistresses: Tia, Tessa, and Grace! I’m a high maintenance caller. I demand attention to detail. For me, only the Best will do.
Each one is blessed with a brilliant combination of super sexy voice, excellent listening skills, exquisite powers of intellect, imagination, intuition, and great sense of humor. They shift gears with me flawlessly, pay attention to what I say and throw it all back at me with virtuoso improvisation. A three hour call is no problem for professionals like these.
My regret is only that Tessa, I don’t believe, is ever available any longer; Tia is ever so rarely it seems, and Grace is wickedly elusive although lately I’ve been managing some kind of teasing contact thank god but damn do I need a proper looong call lol!

Long Live Sissy School!!!

Why I love www.cockcontrol.com

This reminds me of my elementary school days and the homework assignments titled “How I spent my summer vacation,� or “Why I like school,� or any of the other writing assignments that my teachers had assigned back when I was very young.

Only, this one was more fun.

Why do I love www.cockcontrol.com Why is it my favorite of all the LDW sites?

When you first log in you are greeted with the thumb nailed photos of all the intelligent, attractive ladies that will make your every fantasy a reality. The choices abound; do you want to speak to a blonde or a brunette? A redhead? Whatever your ideal woman is, short hair or long; smiling sweet or staring at you with piercing eyes you can discover them all.

Clicking around you can meet all of the Mistresses. Clicking on their photo brings up a larger picture and words written by their own hands describing what you can expect if you surrender to them. Desciptions of what that Mistress will do to you, what you can expect if you give yourself to them, and make no mistake, you will surrender; you can fight, you can hem and haw, but, ultimately, if you call you will be captured, captivated and caught and you will submit.

But why fight it.

Then, as you browse the sexy ladies that will capture your will, as you read the excerpts of their style and demands, you look deeper and find that each of the mistresses, not only reveal themselves with their attractive photos and intelligent, well reasoned blurbs describing themselves, but you can click the link and get little voice snippets to play on your computer. You can spend hours just deciding upon who to submit to.

But, wait, there’s more. If you are one of the first five hundred callers… Most of the ladies have blogs that they link to. You can read about their exploits, their thoughts, and their callers. Reading their write-ups, listening to their voices and reading their blogs you can find exactly the kind of woman you are wanting to submit to. Strict or sensual, teasing or tough? You can find it all, not by reading someone else’s description of the ladies, but by reading their own words, hearing their voices and reading their blogs.

You can spend days reading everything and still not sort through it all.

But, that’s all well and good. The choices, the pictures, the words and the sounds, it can keep you busy for hours. What’s not to love?

But, that’s still not all. There are forums you can read with more interaction between the LDW mistresses and their wards. There are sound files you can download and enjoy at your leisure. There is a chat room you can visit where at anytime of the day or night, one of the intelligent mistresses may pop in and visit.

It’s not the business end of the site that brings me back day after day; sure that information is there. You can sign up for one on one training that lasts for days, weeks, or even months. You can make a lone call, for that one delicious foray into the world of cock control. And there are links galore to whatever teasing fantasy suits you.

Yes, the business end is there, but that is not the crux of the site.

It is the mistresses and their words, the voice files and the forums and the blogs that brings me back day after day.

And it is a very good thing. It’s not the one thing, it’s the whole.

It’s why I love www.cockcontrol.com

Sissy School improved my life. I was depressed and angry when I found Sissy School on the Internet. The first call I made was when I called Mistress Dallas. I even asked her how I would to do a phone sex call to learn how to do it and I told her my problems with being a pseudo hermaphrodite and/or XXY or having androgen insensitivity syndrome. Hermaphrodites run in my family and I had problems passing as a male. It started at birth when I was born late. I started cross dressing at the age of five and women would say he looks like a girl or he should have been a girl. In grade school and high school I would given tests and answer all the questions as a girl would. I had problems with other students for having soft female eyes and I would be pushed in the girl’s locker room and/or women’s room in High School. It got so bad I was almost placed in a state program for transsexuals in Missouri. I knew something was wrong. I loved cross-dressing and would wear panties, pantyhose, bras, slips, and dresses or just being fully dressed all the time.  One time when on a week end trip to Arkansas my family rented a cabin and I went out to a store and purchased coffee colored pantyhose and the sales woman called the Police who came to the cabin and told my parents and made me turn over my pantyhose to the Police and my parents. I also got in to trouble in a North Carolina Bible School for showing up to Bible Study and church service wearing a pretty Church Dress. Another problem in High School was when several girls in four-H decided to have a male cross dressing beauty contest with me in it and even wearing a flowered skirt on stage as a Pacific dancer which I won first place in the show. This is before I knew what was going on. I used to hang out with a transsexual in High School who in now a woman and had over students pick on me for being a sissy. Like reaching over in class and just hitting me in the head or putting me head first in a trashcan also all the military recruiters passed me over for being a transsexual. So I started College with more problems like more cross-dressing and the first time I had sex was with a man that picked me up at a witches birthday party which also had cross dressers and men who liked them. When I got my first taste of man cream I loved it. Why was I cross-dressing and enjoying men? What am I? The women asked me why I had very little facial hair and very soft skin and then there were the soft female eye problem that made women just walk away from me for being a sissy and I did not know why at the time. Women would look in my eyes and see that I was a woman and later at Sissy School I found out that I was a submissive straight woman. These problems also came into the work place and later to graduate school when I was working on my master’s degree in History. I would write in the passive voice or like a woman and this used to drive the professors crazy and they even had me tested for it in my University. I found out later that I was a woman pretending to be man and all the tests can up female on my gender review. I had a woman’s brain in a male body. I was reclassified a transsexual which means I have to be fully passable, but were do you go and who do you talk to? It became worse when my great aunt went crazy and turned me in for having an air base and when the police and other government officials came to check it out I was fully dressed as a woman. I was doing my homework and reading a history book in a very clean kitchen and wearing a jean skirt and a blouse. I also had on make up and a wig just a normal woman. Why was I using a dildo and sleeping in a nightgown? Why was I wearing make up when I was cleaning the house? Why did I prefer wearing a bra and pantyhose under my jeans? Why did I talk about cute guys in my sleep? The pressure was building and more problems came. Like being asked to take male hormone shots or having some one help teach me to be man and it reached the breaking point when a crazy man broke in the house and looked at all my dresses and found my dildo and attacked me. I was angry by now and I needed someone to talk to and I found Sissy School.

May be Sissy School could help me? So I looked around and called Mistress Dallas. She was prefect for me. I told her every thing to have a fresh start and we started with a wardrobe list and she told me that I was a woman I broke down and started to cry. This was good for me because I faced the fact that I was a sissy and I needed to start over as a woman. I told Mistress Dallas please do not hold any thing back and teach me how to be a woman and so I can start over as a submissive straight woman. Sometimes Mistress Dallas was busy and I got other mistresses that also helped me a long such as Mistress Dianna who taught me how to date men and please them as a woman. Mistress Ashley taught how to please a man on my knees and made me work on my cock sucking and Mistress Elizabeth showed me my place and told how to find a wonderful penis shaped butt plug which changed every thing about being a sissy for the better. Mistress Daphne got me in line for maid training and told how important it was for being penis plugged and working on my cock sucking skills everyday and to use my ejaculating penis everyday to get use to pleasing my man by swallowing man cream every time I went down on him because is my place as a straight submissive female to please my man. Mistress Jamie gave me more ideas about being a woman and we talked about sexy men and I got to talk to Mistress Ally on the phone before talking to another Mistress and told her about my ejaculating training penis by now my training program was set. I was trained by Nurse Nancy before as a panty girl and now Mistress Dallas was my main Mistress and always will be since she enslaved me for life and she set up my training program of being plugged and working on cock sucking twice a day which made me more relaxed and less stressed out so I could start doing things again as a normal person. I really improved as a person with my use of the life like training penis and the ejaculating penis used to train me to go down on a man and give hand jobs during my assigned period days and the penis shaped plug used to train me to be an anal submissive with a strap on or a real man. I hated the small plugs to start with, but when I got the penis shaped plug that was great because it was like having a man in me and I loved it while Mistress Dallas saw a big change in me during this time of training to be a submissive woman. Now I was fitted with a pink leather slave collar and a kitty cat shaped nametag that is pink with my phone number and has marked me as the property of Mistress Dallas and I was a slave now and everyone can see that I am a cocksucker and a slave. This great because I know my place now as a submissive straight woman and I belonged to some one and I was not a lone as a sissy. The next change was my role as a slave was to be chained twice a day for Mistress Dallas and some times even doing housework as a slave, which means in chains such as scrubbing the floors on my hands and knees. I had agreed to wear the slave collar all the time expect my wedding day and was now ready for chains. I started by being tied in nylon stockings and/or thigh highs every morning and evening until I got my Police handcuffs and leg cuffs for being fitted out as a slave. This is very important to Mistress Dallas and she made my life better so I agreed to be chained for a half an hour in the morning and the evening for life. First it was nylons, then leathers cuffs, and later full metal ankle and wrist cuffs and no more crying I am to be quiet and demure when serving Mistress Dallas. We even talked about having me marked on my skin as her slave and I will to do it if she wants me to. I went from a wreck on the edge of a metal breakdown so stressed out that I could even read to a happy slave that people liked Mistress Dallas had slowly cured me. Mistress Dallas got me to read again by using the Dream Wheel training, I can talk to people again, back to work thanks to sissy slave training, and Sissy School made me feel good about being a transsexual woman.  She made me a better person and saved my life. I worship her and serve as her slave. I thank her when she chains me and I am proud to be collared with her name on it. It is a symbol of a fresh start in life as a sissy. I was nothing as a man but now I can do any thing as a woman. People like me better as a woman because I am happier now. I improved even more in Kink chat and Feminization chat I watched and learned my place. I started to meet people like me and people I never dreamed of its like the Sissy School break room. I am a slave first and do my sissy lessons for Mistress Dallas, but that a great place to visit and meet over sissies. That is when I found my place maybe I could help a depressed sissy or two by giving them a nice word or just listening to them. Now I am so proud to put on my nurse’s uniform or my maid’s uniform to serve my owner Mistress Dallas I rather be chained as a sissy slave than being a depressed person like I was before Sissy School. I came to Sissy School and learned my place as a submissive and I am much happier now and I am a better person that is why I love Sissy School. I need Sissy School to teach me how to be a productive professional woman it works and I want to do more for my self and others.

The answers are easy; how i got to them isn’t!

 

i have been a lover of ldw for years and love all the Mistresses.  i started off in Sissy School, because that is what i considered myself.  i loved dressing in soft sissy outfits and having my Mistress help make the sensation even more delicious.  i had the pleasure of talking to many Mistresses, some who are still here and some who have moved on, but they were all great.  One night though i was enticed into a two girl call and got introduced to MsGrace.  i absolutely fell in love with that voice!

 

i continued to call different Mistresses, always curious about the new ones, but for some reason i always seemed to come back to MsGrace.  Then one night MsGrace asked if i would like to do a two girl call with MsTara.  She knew MsTara was my first and that night was the best call ever, even to this day.  We had so much fun and the call just went on an on… one of those calls a sissy never wants to have end.  Well that night i knew that all that MsGrace really wanted was for me to have an enjoyable experience each time i was with Her.  And both MsTara and MsGrace posted about the call in Their blogs and i was a hooked… hooked and happy as can be!

 

It is because of evenings like that that i have tried to show the Mistresses how much i appreciate Their effort.  It was so nice to be able to fly MsTara to Vegas, and to this day She has been so sweet to me.  And buying dinner for the Mistresses in Florida was a treat for me as well!  They are all wonderful, and i love being in chat with all of them from Two Bitch Tuesday and our League of Pain Chat with MsElizabeth to the feminization chat with MsCecilia… and then there is Cock Radio!  Each Mistress is special in Her own way, and they are all so welcumming.

 

There just was something special about MsGrace though… something that kept drawing me in.  She just had a way of leading me down this fantasy path, but what was so exciting is that i really didn’t know where this path was taking me.  i just knew that if i let Her lead me, it would be a path that i would never want to leave.

 

One day there was this email from MsGrace with the shopping list of bubble bath, nail polish, candles and Glamour Magazine that led to the most relaxing evening i ever had and the call that followed was wonderful telling Her all about the feelings i had.  But She was going to make things even more exciting and the next time instead of painting my own nails, i was going to get my first pedicure.  She knew how much i would love it… and i also found out what a secret You Women have been keeping from us. She was sooooo right!  And then the next time MsGrace even had me do a call with Her while i was getting my pedi!  That is why i love Her so… She is always looking for a way to make my next call even more exciting than the last!

 

i am not sure where it happened, but at some point She was no longer just MsGrace, She was my Princess!  But She is also not just my Princess… She is the Princess to dozens of other admiring pets.  Her Thursday night TeaseTime is a highlight of each week for many of us.  i am constantly amazed at how She can make more than 20 of us feel like we are Her special one… She just loves all of Her pets!  And then the MP3’s She shares are amazing. She always seems to have something for every type of fantasy from sissies to cock control.  And that brings me to the other part of this story…

 

As i said, i started my doings at ldw in Sissy School, but one night when i was chatting with Princess She had me check out www.ExtremeRestraints.com . We sort of went shopping together and that night i bought a CB2000, and so began my journey into the world of Cock Control.

 

In the same way Princess made being sissy and femme a new experience each time we chatted, She introduced me to cock control and denial, something i never thought i would enjoy.  And in keeping with the way Princess makes Her pets feel special, She even honored me by sending me Her collar… something i wear with pride because She is just so special!

 

At the same time MsAlly, i want to say how much fun it is to share the experience of being locked away with the other Mistresses and chatters.  The rooms seem to take some delight in sharing my ordeals and then there is always MsHannah or MsAshley on Cock Radio to even further enhance the enjoyment of having my cock securely under control.  But the reason i so love Princess is that just being locked up isn’t enough.  No, She knows i can make it even more fun by getting a lap dance with my cage on, not just the time on Bourbon Street, but again at the OG while all of You were somewhere with me in Vegas!  The way Princess goes so far beyond just phone sex to make my time with Her so memorable is the reason i do love Her!  And She has this wonderful way of balancing reality and fantasy, knowing what is safe to do and what we should just dream about doing.

 

That is really what is so wonderful about the whole ldw experience.  i have a great job but with a lot of responsibilities and a great wife, that Princess and i call the Queen.  And just as Princess knows how to balance fantasy and reality in our calls, ldw allows me to balance fantasy and reality in my life.  i must say it has actually helped my marriage.  Princess knows how much i love the Queen and often gives me advice on how to please the Queen as well, and the Queen always seems to love it.

 

With all the stresses of life today, it is nice to have ldw and my Princess to strike that balance among work, home and play.  And when it comes to play, there is nothing more exciting to me now than locking my cock away and sending Princess my key only to get the lockbox holding it back from Her.  Wanting and needing and finally begging for Her sweet release.  And when She does finally grant it, it is pure ecstasy!

 

Well maybe now You understand why i said i love Cock Control at ldw.  i do think that Black Book Girls is probably the best looking page just because of color pictures, although the picture of MsTia on Cock Control is pretty erotic.  i also do have a special spot for Sissy School just because i am still a sissy.  But until Princess hosts Cock Radio (which would move it to the top for me) Cock Control and complete devotion to my special Princess is going to be what makes ldw the place for me.

 

i could probably go on for ever singing the praises of ldw, all the wonderful Mistress, Cock Control and my Princess, but then that’s what a blog is for.  You will find plenty more on mine www.pantysue.blogspot.com about why i love all of these things, but i don’t want to go on too far.  Thank You and all of the Mistresses for all that You do for us… and thank You for helping me find my Princess and the way to have Her truly control my cock!

My favorite LDW site is:
Phone humiliation because I have always enjoyed being verbally abused, having 5 sisters growing up I was extremely abused verbally and I loved it  !! when I went through basic training in the United States Army the verbal abuse was tremendous and I enjoyed it so much,  However the one thing about being verbally abused by a Drill Sergeant was the fact that I was not attired properly, now thanks to your wonderful creation I can call up ALMOST anytime (the reason I say that) is because sometimes the Mistresses that I have a really good rapport with are not always on, which brings up a very good point, thanks to your idea I can see when a mistress is on that I have a good rapport with so when SHE picks up the phone to talk to me SHE already knows the types of abuse I like plus all about my fetishes plastic and raincoats) Also one really cool thing about having 5 sisters was all the cool clothes I got to wear, I had more clothes than a Gap store and more shoes that Patrins!! And now thanks to Phone Humiliation dot com I can actually tell WOMEN this stuff!!!
Thank You so much. My heart starts to get going when I see a mistress that I have a good rapport with online, I get all dressed up in a plastic bag and one of my raincoats, I have so many now which one do I put on, I then dial 1-800-356-8169 I know that number by heart!!
When I hear the background music when I am on hold, my mind starts drifting and the plastic bag feels so good, the operator comes on and I ask her “may I please speak to?? I have so many favorite Mistresses that there is usually one on after giving the operator my information the call get transferred my thoughts then are can I really talk to the WOMAN about my fantasy but SHE is so nice to me it is so easy sharing my secrets with HER, After the call I usually send a e-mail to HER, telling her how much I enjoyed the call, I then check my account for a reply ,when I get one my heart sings for joy !! I cannot believe how cool what YOU did is.

www.phonehumiliation.com 

My favorite LDW webpage?  That’s easy:  Cock Control.  When I’m looking for someone exciting to talk to, where  do I go, Cock Control.  When life is a little dull and I want to liven it up, where do I go, Cock Control.  I have it saved on my favorites.  One click and I’m instantly transported  to smiling faces, witty blogs, and the gateway to excitement.  No other place on the net has so much to offer.  Click the link to the mistresses.  So many to choose from, where do I start?  Each one fires the imagination and warms the soul.  I could spend hours there reading about the mistresses.  But it doesn’t end there, with another click I get to listen to her voice.  Imagine a library to audio ecstasy.  It’s a second away.  Or do you want to read a little more about that favorite woman?  Go back to Cock Control and click that magic button again.  The mistresses appear again.  She has a link to her blog.  Another click and I’m in her private domain where she keeps all her secrets.  It’s like finding a treasure.  Woo hoo she likes to tease too!  It’s like the Disneyland of sex.  Which ride will I go on next?  Will it be bumpy or smooth.  Will I have to wait in line for a long time or will she be available soon.  Take a tour of Cock Control and you’ll never be the same.

It’s kind of funny, almost.  Why do I love my Mistress?  How does love become love?  When you meet someone for the first time, how is it that they capture your attention ahead of someone else?  What is it that propmts one to realize that they actually have fallen for someone?

It’s very difficult to put into words what it is that first compelled me to fall for MsTara, but every time we talk or chat, She seems to ratchet up the intensity and She does it almost imperceptibly.  And it’s not like we have been able to talk or chat that often, but over time, She has constantly shown that She knows what I need and what I crave.  Until the moment came to me the other night that I had fallen for Her.

She has always had the ability to grab my attention.  When I first met Her in the chatroom, She was one of a few who knew right away not to allow me to leave to go to bed.  No matter what time of the night (or early morning it was), I wasn’t to be allowed to leave.  Instead, I had to shut up and get another beer.  There were a few nights when I got pretty hammered while chatting in that room.  And then, on the phone for as long as She wanted.

As time passed, the hold She had on me became tighter and tighter.  And She learned more and more the details of my own submissiveness.  She came to know when to be nice, when to tease, when to humiliate and when to make me Her bitch.  And it has always been heavenly.

This past week, I came to understand that I was falling for MsTara in a way that I had not fallen in a long time.  The hold She had begun to take many months ago had now become an unyielding grip from which I could not nor would not want to extricate myself.  And I liked it.  And now, at the end of every chat session or conversation, I cannot leave Her until I end it properly and that is by saying, “I love You, MsTara�.  And I like the way She has made all this happen.

When we first began talking and chatting, She was dominant, but She was also nice.  And that was nice.  As our time together elapsed, She (and I) realized that there were times when I liked things a bit rougher.  In fact, the more demanding She got, the more of an effect it had on me, until now, She moves effortlessly back and forth from loving to teasing to being quite demanding.  And for each shift, my mind and my body immediately responds.  I often feel like a violin as She ably and expertly plays me as no one else does.

The effect has been that I now find myself thinking of Her at times that I shouldn’t be.  Even as I type these words, on the day of Christmas Eve, I should be spending time with my family upstairs, but I am here saying what I must.  And that is “I love You MsTara�.  Bye for now.